BIO

Renée Fabian gave over 150 performances before hanging up her saxophone in favor of her lifelong love of writing. Currently a Los-Angeles based writer and editor, she covers everything from music, entertainment and the arts to the LGBTQ community and mental health. Also cats. Her work has appeared with The Culture Trip, Bestcovery, mxdwn.com and GLAAD.org, among others. You can learn more about her work via www.reneefabian.com.

Renee Fabian's Articles

Letting go of suicide means I have to let it all go, let it all out.

Saying Goodbye To Suicide And Yes To A Life Worth Living

Dear Suicide, I don't know how to start this. I want to write something deep and life-changing, but that's just too daunting. So I'll start with the facts before I have to do the hard part of... Read...
Renee Fabian    |   03.14.17 12am   |   SHARE
I want freedom.

How I Coped And Survived My Life — After Being Abused

Trauma has a way of breaking people down. It's consumed almost every moment of the last 15 years of my life- from the mental health consequences, such as PTSD and years invested in therapy, to the... Read...
Renee Fabian    |   09.6.16 12am   |   SHARE
I want to feel and share deeply, intimately. I can’t admit any of this out loud. Image: Thinkstock.

Denial Won't Help Me Recover From Trauma

[M]y therapist pointed out there’s a huge discrepancy in the way I present myself. On the one hand, I am a successful working person who seems fine and normal. On the other hand, I have a hard time... Read...
Renee Fabian    |   07.28.16 12am   |   SHARE
Most of the time I can't be present no matter how hard I try: not at the beach, not at a concert I've been eagerly anticipating, not with friends or family. It's frustrating at best. Image: Unsplash, Francisco Moreno

It's Hard To 'Live In The Moment' When You Dissociate

Supposedly, the happiest people are living in the moment, seizing the day, and generally living like it's their last day on earth. It all sounds inspired, wonderful, and profound. And simple. Who... Read...
Renee Fabian    |   07.12.16 12am   |   SHARE
Recovery from trauma is a journey. Image: Rocksana Rocksana/Unsplash.

Trauma Broke Me Into Parts, But I Found Wholeness Through IFS Therapy

Individual “parts” of my system [...] have become dysfunctional as a result of trauma. Some of these parts are stuck as young children or teenagers, while others carry individual emotions like worry... Read...
Renee Fabian    |   06.9.16 12am   |   SHARE
It took until my early 20s to learn I suffered from OCD, and that life didn’t have to be like this. Image: quimuns/Pixabay

Growing Up With OCD

The fear of my parents getting killed driving me there or back loomed around every decision. I always went with my parents on every errand possible, pretending I liked the grocery store.
Renee Fabian    |   05.26.16 12am   |   SHARE
My tattoos have become a protective buffer against self-injury and an important step in refashioning my journey toward wellness. Image: Thinkstock.

How Tattoos Helped Me Recover From Self-Injury

[CN: cutting, dissociation, auditory hallucinations] I struggle with the need to have physical, visible proof of my inner world. That’s when I realized tattoos can replace my scars. I can reinterpret... Read...
Renee Fabian    |   05.4.16 12am   |   SHARE
I was just a naïve kid who didn't understand what was happening.

I Was Sexually Abused By A Teacher — And I'm Still Paying For It. Literally.

I feel I got the short end of the stick because of emotional and financial costs I am still paying for what he did — the grooming, the mind games, the violation of my body and my agency, the... Read...
Renee Fabian    |   04.11.16 12am   |   SHARE