Long Reads

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I'll Keep You Safe, Mom

I stood in the hallway and tentatively pushed the bathroom door open, holding my breath as I peered into the darkness, waiting for it to bump into

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First, I tell her the love story, and also the heartbreak story, and she listens, even if she's heard so much of this before.

How My Alcoholic Ex Strengthened My Relationship With Our Daughter

As long as I give my daughter the space to talk, I feel like my alcoholic ex can strengthened my relationship with her. I hope she knows that I'm here.

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Navigating The Delusions Of A Loved One

After my mother’s suicide in 2009, I was left with a gnawing sense of guilt. My mother had suffered from an undiagnosed delusional disorder.

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Inglorious Touch 

Pulling the plug on the numbing forces you to look at your past, dealing with the knives you’ve been carting around which are now being thrown.

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“We are moving to America,” they told me.

How Growing Up Russian And Cuban Made Me An American

I landed at Miami International Airport knowing nothing other than that my Cuban father and Russian mother had decided to move our family there.

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At first, every time the quarry had a group scheduled, the same level of panic would hit all over again.

Real Teacher, Fake Dinosaur Quarry 

I walk out onto our fake dinosaur quarry, and watch in fear as a line of second graders get ready to witness my first time delivering the lesson.

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No one should ever be thankful for cancer, but I can say that I’m thankful for what it showed us.

How My Father's Cancer Made My Life Better

Cancer isn't fun or fair, but at the end of the day, life — even a cancer-stricken one — was better because we were in it together.

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World War II veterans suffered acutely at the hands of a society intent on a single conformist vision of life that did not include mental illness. (Image of Pat courtesy of the author.)

When Veterans Come Home: My Grandfather And His Demons

I'm trying to unearth the secrets of my grandfather’s story of when veterans come home. I'm looking at what happened to the men of WW ll.

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