Deanna deBara

99% of the time, I feel like a complete f*ck-up in grown up’s clothing.

My libido pulled a disappearing act. I’ve always had a healthy sex drive, but once my IUD was implanted, sex was the furthest thing from my mind.

Whenever anyone asks me about wedding details, I smile and say we’re working on it while I silently freaking out. I have so much anxiety over my engagement.

My closet is like a fashion graveyard, the final resting place of all the people I thought I wanted to be over the years.

Because when you dig a little deeper, all of those “darkest moments”? They’re really not so messed up at all. In fact, they’re actually pretty amazing.

When my soon-to-be-husband proposed I knew wedding planning would teach me about our relationship. I didn’t realize it would teach me about friendship.