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Navigating The Delusions Of A Loved One

After my mother’s suicide in 2009, I was left with a gnawing sense of guilt. My mother had suffered from an undiagnosed delusional disorder.

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The Quiet Violence At The Heart Of Motherhood 

From the beginning, mothering and being mothered are both brutal. One day you’ll hurt your mom, I thought. And she’ll hurt you, somehow, without knowing it.

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The First Girl: On The Loss Of Friendship 

There is no support or safety net to break one’s fall when friendships fade or split apart. There's not an acceptable period of isolation.

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Is it okay to mourn the child that never was?

I Was Pregnant With Twins But Delivered One Baby​

Is it okay to mourn the child that never was? That seeped into my blood without my even noticing? I only delivered one baby but I was pregnant with two.

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It was the night before my father’s funeral that I finally asked the tarot for help.

Using Tarot To Work Through Trauma

It was the night before my father’s funeral that I finally asked the tarot for help. I was incapable of imagining a future where I delivered his eulogy.

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Stop Beating Yourself Up — You're Doing Your Best

The facade of control I’d spent so much energy maintaining was ripped from me. I am doing my best, and that’s good enough for me.

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My family still couldn't talk about her death out loud, but I needed a reminder she was really gone.

A Stranger Answered My Aunt's Disconnected Number; Here's What He Taught Me About Grief

I touched “Aunt Kelly” on the screen and waited for a robotic voice to say, “this number has been disconnected.” This is how I met Shawn.

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There is no more powerful place to learn a life lesson than at the bedside of the dying.

What Really Matters: A Lesson From The Dying

There is no more powerful place to learn a life lesson than at the bedside of the dying. At the end, very little matters.

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